Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Where My Demons Hide

To My Dearest Self...

I would like to scold you now for being stupid enough to let other people step on you but what can I say? You've always been like that. Besides, I know right now you are hurting... well, not as difficult like the past ones. But still. Nursing a bruised ego is not easy. So I will let it easy on you right now. Still I can't help it. I am shaking my head at you. If you have thought about yourself before anyone else, your ego would still be intact. If you have not cared enough not to hurt other's feelings, then you shouldn't have undergone what you just did. Yet I understand you. You did what you have to do and despite losing, I still think you can win this one in time. Ego is nothing after all. You are still whole and that's what's important. 

Sunday, March 18, 2018

Book Review: My Sister’s Keeper

I chanced upon this book in August 2017. While I and some colleagues were waiting for our turns to donate blood, I found this book on the shelves and gave it a try. Naturally, I didn’t get to finish the book, let alone read through chapter 1, although I didn’t get to donate blood either because I left all my IDs in the office. But I couldn’t forget about the book and here praises go to Jodi Picoult for starting the book with some really thought provoking ideas.

Fast forward to 6 months after, I finally secured myself a copy of the book. For the past few years in my life since I started my CPA, I have lost my passion for reading books. Even after I took a break from studying, I found myself struggling to get back into the passion. In fact, before My Sister’s Keeper, I have attempted reading a number of books but haven’t got close to finishing a chapter before I give up altogether. My Sister’s Keeper kind of triggered the passion. In less than 2 weeks I was able to finish the book. Actually, correct that. It was technically 4 days (2 weekends), because I couldn’t really touch it on weekdays due to a busy schedule. Mind you, I was dying to read it though. It is one of those books that are very hard to put down.

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Daisy's Funny Remarks

This morning while I and the girls were walking to school, we saw crested pigeons on the footpath when Daisy made one of her really funny remarks. She asked if anyone actually put gel on the birds' "hair" which made it stuck up like the one in the photo. That was quite an imagination which I find really cute and funny.

Sunday, March 4, 2018


First time I heard about the term “nesting” was when my friend in church told me about her experience when she was pregnant. She said that as she was approaching her due date, she had this urge to clean up the house. Funny, I never remembered experiencing this with my 1st and 2nd pregnancy. Probably because I was living with my mom and with her nurturing disposition, she always presented to do the chores herself. That, or I was just lazy.

However, this weekend, I came to understand and experience first-hand this so called "nesting." It's like an unknown force feeding me the urge to clean and organise the house despite the fact that I can barely move about already. On top of that, I also wasn't feeling well because of this viral illness that struck me.

Friday, February 23, 2018

My 3rd Pregnancy Diaries

In 10 weeks or less, I shall be meeting my baby Darla Jenn and I know my husband and my girls are as excited as I am to meet her! The signs are here – Braxton Hicks, heartburn, pelvic pains, shortness of breath. Sleepless nights have come earlier but with the way I am feeling now, I do not know if my original plan of coming to work as close to birth date is still possible hehehe. That means maybe in 8 weeks or less, I’ll be saying goodbye to my colleagues. Not for good though, but for at least a year I am planning to enjoy motherhood. I don’t want to think about coming back, I know it will be strange for a lot can happen in one year.

Thursday, February 15, 2018

16 Years...

In a matter of months, I shall be facing a big change in my life. In fact, the past few months, I have been experiencing beautiful changes and unexpected blessings...

Life is pretty peaceful and smooth flowing at the moment, thank God, I couldn't ask for more.

I pray that the peace I have found also occur in the lives of the people who are currently undergoing a difficult stage in their lives right now...

Monday, January 22, 2018

Reflections On Getting the Level 5/6 Position

This might be a lengthy and boring post for the 3rd party reader but for me, it was an incredible event in my life and I am hopeful that the moral of the story may be helpful to some as it had been to me.

2017 had been an eventful year for me at work. It didn't begin well, with the bitter struggles carried over from 2016 and perhaps even from the years prior to that - end of 2015 was the period I was on the ve-rge of falling into depression while 2016 was a year full of hardships and trials. They weren't entirely work related nevertheless, my condition had affected all aspects of my life. By the beginning of 2017, I was nonchalant and indifferent plus the pressures of CPA studies only increased the stress.

Where My Demons Hide

To My Dearest Self... I would like to scold you now for being stupid enough to let other people step on you but what can I say? You'...