Tuesday, February 14, 2017

My 15th Year

This year, there is one wish that I pray to God:

Just a little corner in His paradise.

I have experienced a lot of struggles in my life. From the time I have plummeted to the pit of darkness in my life, I have been humbled a lot of times.

I do not regret the times I have been pained though. These experiences created the most important permanent marks in my life. Like a cutter, every time I encounter a painful experience, I cut my heart with His words to alleviate the pain.

On the outside, I seem like a nonchalant girl, indifferent to everything that’s going on around me. But I am just someone who likes to hide inside the shell she created to protect the person who is so vulnerable and weak. I do not wish to show emotions. My tears are the only treasure I could keep perhaps. For I don’t have a lot of good works or good deeds to store.

God already gave me a lot in life and yet I still mess up. I am ashamed to the point that I have learned to ask little. I want to view life not as competition but a journey. I’d like to believe that heaven is as big as God’s mercy. And so I wish, that after everyone – especially my loved ones - is granted their space…

I wish there would be left, just a little corner in His paradise, for me.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Back to School 2017

Once again, my blogging surge came to a halt and a long hiatus too. Well, not as long as the ones before hehehe. As usual, it's because of the busy status of a working mom. 

True to my plan last December about semi-homeschooling the kids I have been busy for most of January contacting my friends who work as teachers and getting idea here and there. Education here in Australia is very different from the Philippines. I can't really say one is better than the other. I do like the way the children's social skills are being developed in public schools here. They are also inclined to explore their creative skills and talents. But while I find these aspects really good, I decided that incorporating a little bit of the education system in the Philippines couldn't hurt them. 

From memory, I remembered how strict it had been for me as early as Prep level (equivalent to Kindie here). One particular incident that stuck to me was when I failed to completely copy our homework from the black board because I got tired of writing. I remember clearly how I said to myself that I will finish copying at home, and then realised at home that it wasn't possible hahaha. I believe that was my first lesson in learning from my mistakes. When Mrs Santos checked our notebooks and found mine to be incomplete, she threw away my notebook. It was embarrassing. But, no, I didn't grow up broken or twisted. Or did I? Hehehehe.

I started this journey of semi-homeschooling feeling lost. I searched the web for a definite Lesson Plan that would show me which topics to teach for a definite subject, for a specific grade level and for the right time. While there were plenty of resources, most of them were very vague. One of my primary problems was trying to make sense between the Reading and Language subject or just English subject as a whole. With a lot of help from my teacher friends, I was given the answer that Reading and Language were separated during early years of learning to establish a child's reading skills. Also, I learned that the lesson plan I was looking for is also know as Subject Matter Outline.

So this afternoon would be my third session with the girls. Last Tuesday, we did groceries so we didn't have much time for proper lessons in the evening. Not to waste time, I did give them drills - multiplication for Demi and sight words for Daisy. I can't really say that I have established a concrete lesson plan. There are times when I think too much and try to plan ahead until my brain crashes and then I lose track. I use planners now and for a scatterbrain like me, this is a very daunting task. This is just one of the challenges I face.

The other challenge I encounter is when the girls don't pay attention. I knew this would happen and so one of the preventive solutions I implemented was to keep away their gadgets starting Sunday night up to Friday afternoon. I clearly let the girls know about this as well so they would know what to expect. On the first day of the homeschooling, Daisy clamored non-stop for her Ipad. Giving her a response could be tiresome and even when I ignored her, she would still push her luck. The key is to be firm. It also helps if you orient the daddy beforehand (hehehe). If you feel as if daddy's giving in to the whims, keeping him out of the way is the plan B.

One of the other challenges I face is how to motivate the girls. Sometimes, making things fun stirs up their mood. The only disadvantage is that the girls fall for the hype too eagerly and before I know it, they start mocking around too much.

Anyway, it's only the 3rd session really, but last night I felt like giving up and stopping altogether because homeschooling them is also trying my best to control my temper hehehe. It is very difficult choosing which button to push: from being nice to motivate the girls, to being strict to keep them moving or up to what extent of behaviour to tolerate before hitting the anger button. It's indeed a roller coaster ride! But, I will keep pushing and hopefully be sharing more progress later on. I do believe the girls will get used to the routine and the task will become smooth by then.

Until then! Hoping to establish a better SMO soon and be willing to share this with every mom out there who are riding the same boat!

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

An Update on Mesothelioma

Back in 2014, I  was invited by Heather Von St James to join a summer capaign in raising awareness regarding Mesothelioma: a type of cancer that in my opinion is not very much known although a lot of people has actually suffered such cancer. The post I wrote in July 2014 contained information about this type of cancer and how the campaign could help survivors and those affected by this illness.

Recently, I received an email from Virgil Anderson, who was diagnosed with Mesothelioma. When he learned that he had the cancer, he found immediate medical attention through Mesothelioma.net.

Thankfully, there are people dedicated and passionate enough to serve victims of Mesothelioma who are willing to assist and give peace of mind to them. Virgil recounted that even though he contacted them on a Sunday one of their patient advocates gave him a call back within minutes. They gave him a great deal of helpful information on doctors and resources available to him.

As a result of their website he is now being treated at the National Cancer Institute and the patient advocates have even provided him with financial assistance so he could afford a place to live during his cancer treatments. He further added that if he had not reached out to this website he would likely be homeless and more importantly in hospice waiting to die. These people gave him his only chance at survival.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Finally! The 1st Day of 2017

I have been waiting for this day not because 2016 had been a bad year for me. True, it had its tough times but generally, 2016 went by smoothly. It's not also about resolutions. Nothing profound here. It's just that finally I can use my Le Petit Prince journal!

Friday, December 30, 2016

Kids Day At The Office

I can't believe and I am reluctant to believe that my holiday from work is already halfway through. We have a 2 week break from work and it's incredible how the first week had gone so quickly! I tried to spend as much time with the kids as possible, taking them to places too, because as soon as work resumes, I will have none of these again.

The last day at work was a very pleasant one as kids were invited to visit the workplace with their parents. Thanks to Daddy who drove us in the morning so we could come early and be saved from the hassle of public transport.